Hey all! I thought before I went to bed I'd just do a quick update on my life and stuff.
It's been a while since I've done an actual journal, I'm looking at my history and it's been longer than I thought.
So, eh, I guess it's been okay. Not too great, but not like horrible.

I talked to Jeremy yesterday, wow was that not awesome.
I mean, ugh. It started out good, light hearted ass joking, like the good old times. But then we started catching up. And it just went down the shitter.
I subconsciously knew he was dating someone. But it just hit me like another ton of bricks. He told me they've been dating about four months, and we broke up only five ago. Like, wtf? He waits a month before dating someone?
I mean, I kind of find that unfair. I broke up with him, I seemed to have taken most of the pain and heart ache, and he just goes out and gets himself some whore and gets laid?
After a month I still cried myself to sleep.
On the other hand, I think I should be happy because he's moving on with his life, and he, himself, is happy. But, still. How unfair is that?
Mid conversation I had to leave to go off to cry, it was all too much.
I mean, I feel no more feelings for him, I'm completely over him. And I'm seeing it's better when he was out of my life. Like, always. A text here or there, and that was it. I never even thought of him. I completely forgot him.
Which, is a good thing. I need to man up and tell him get lost. (But in my own, polite way)

I'm on a diet now. But, not like my previous ones. I'm horribly serious about this one. I've cut down way on my food intake. Haven't touched a soda (Coookkkee x.x)or even chocolate. I've been suuuppeerr good. Staring at calories and shit. Oh god, my brain kind of hurts xD;
My parents are totally being unsupportive. They keep offering me all this high calorie good.
Like Hungry Man Tv Dinners. 1040 Calories. Not to mention the salt level, or anything else. That's half of a healthy persons calorie limit..thing..
I've lost about 5 pounds, maybe more now. It's been a few days since I weighed myself.
I'm trying to get all sexy for the con in October. Maybe the one at the end of July, if I'm convincing enough. Probably won't be, since we're uber low on money this month.

Ummmmmmmmmmm. What else?
OH. There's this tiny little lizard that's stuck in the house. He's been in for like a week xD; It's hysterical.
He's all over the walls. My cat is going insane. He spots him and is like "LIZARD!" and runs all over. It's amazing.

Ohh! Did I mention this? xD I dun' remember. I started doing makeup vids on youtube. I suck, I so know. But, hey! Oh well~

Ummmmmmmmmmmm. Now what else?
I think that may be it! Maybe? I dunno? Sure?
-shrugnodflail-
Sorry for this long ass ramble. Hope all is well with you all!